Ashes That Refused to Die

By the time the third gate fell, the smell inside Chittorgarh Fort had changed. For months the fort had smelled of siege: boiled grain scraped from bronze vessels, horse dung drying beneath the winter sun, oil burning through sleepless nights, and men whose armour had not left their bodies for weeks. But after the third gate shattered beneath the Sultan’s assault, another scent began spreading slowly through the stone arteries of Chittor. Ghee. Sandalwood. Camphor. And something else beneath it. Something final.

Kesar Bai noticed it first near the inner courtyards while carrying water from the Gomukh Kund. Women moved swiftly through corridors with lowered eyes, their silver anklets muted beneath layers of cloth wrapped tightly around their feet. Temple bells rang longer than usual that afternoon. Priests recited verses with trembling voices. Fires were being prepared somewhere inside the zenana quarters though the air was already warm. Nobody explained anything aloud anymore. The fort itself seemed to know.

Kesar was nineteen and had served inside the palace since childhood. Her mother had embroidered silk for the queens before fever took her during a monsoon season. Her father had died guarding one of the outer walls years earlier when the Malwa Sultanate tested Chittor’s defences. The fort had raised her after that. She knew its steep stone pathways better than village children knew fields. She knew where parrots nested within cracked battlements, where monsoon rain collected first upon the ramparts, and which corridors trapped the cool desert wind during cruel summers. Chittor was not merely a fort to those born inside it. It was a living kingdom balanced upon stone.

That evening, as the sun reddened the horizon beyond the Aravalli hills, Kesar climbed the palace terraces carrying folded cloth for the queens. From the height she could see the vast spread of the fort glowing amber beneath dying light. Temples pierced the skyline like silent sentinels. Towers rose proudly above palaces stained by centuries of dust and battle. The Vijay Stambh caught the last sunlight upon its carved surface while smoke drifted upward from distant breaches where Alauddin Khilji’s army continued its assault. Far below, beyond the seven massive gates guarding the ascent to Chittor, the Sultan’s encampment spread across the plains like an infection. Thousands of tents. Thousands of fires. Thousands of men waiting for dawn.

The siege had lasted for months. The wells still held water, but food had thinned dangerously. Horses had begun collapsing from hunger. Children no longer played in courtyards. Even the pigeons had vanished from the palace roofs as though they too sensed the ending approaching.

Inside the queens’ chambers the atmosphere felt strangely calm. Rani Padmini sat before a bronze mirror while attendants braided her hair with jasmine oil. Beside her, older queens whispered prayers beneath their breath. No one wept. No one panicked. Their silence frightened Kesar more than the sounds of war outside.

The queen looked toward her suddenly. “You can still ride out tonight,” Padmini said softly. Kesar lowered her gaze. “My place is here, Ranisa.” A faint smile appeared upon the queen’s face. “That is what every soul trapped inside these walls keeps saying.” The room fell silent again except for the crackling of oil lamps. 

Then the queen handed Kesar a folded piece of cloth sealed with vermilion. “You will take this to Rawal Ratan Singh.” Kesar froze. Outside the palace, war drums echoed faintly across the darkening plains. “My queen…” she whispered, “the battlefield…” 

“There may not be another dawn for Chittor,” Padmini replied quietly. “This message must reach him tonight.” Kesar accepted the cloth with trembling fingers. It felt heavier than fabric should.

By the time she left the palace, darkness had begun swallowing the fort. Torches flickered along stone corridors while soldiers rushed toward the breached walls carrying shields blackened by fire. Somewhere distant, wounded men screamed inside overcrowded chambers converted into makeshift healing rooms. Priests moved between temples chanting verses louder than usual as though volume itself could hold back death.

Kesar crossed narrow lanes crowded with people preparing for something nobody dared name aloud. Women gathered bundles of sandalwood. Children were being bathed carefully. Brides wore wedding garments. The smell of ghee thickened with every passing moment.

As she descended toward the outer sections of the fort, Chittor revealed itself differently under torchlight. The great walls seemed endless in darkness, curving over the hilltop like ancient cliffs carved by war itself. Massive gateways rose one after another through steep pathways designed to exhaust invading armies before battle even began. Iron spikes protruded from giant wooden gates to repel elephants. Narrow windows along ramparts flickered with archers’ flames. The fort no longer resembled a palace. It resembled a wounded beast waiting for its final hunt.

Near the Bhairon Pol gate, Kesar found the Rajput warriors preparing for saka. The sight stopped her breath. Men dressed in saffron robes moved silently beneath torchlight while priests marked their foreheads with ash. Some sharpened swords upon stone wheels. Others embraced brothers or sons for the last time. Horses stamped nervously against the cold night wind carrying the smell of enemy fires from below.

Rawal Ratan Singh stood near the ramparts surrounded by commanders. His armour reflected firelight in dull copper flashes. Exhaustion hollowed his face, yet his posture remained straight as the towers behind him.

Kesar approached slowly and bowed before offering the folded cloth. The king opened it without a word. Inside lay a single strand of black hair tied with crimson thread. Nothing else. Ratan Singh stared at it for a long moment while the night wind hissed against the walls. Then he closed his fist around the thread and nodded once. “Tell the queens,” he said quietly, “that Chittor will still be standing when the sun rises.” Kesar looked toward the breached gates below where flames flickered against advancing shadows. Both of them knew he was lying. Yet neither spoke of it.

When she returned toward the inner palaces, the preparations had begun openly. Massive pyres rose within underground chambers lined with stone. Priests poured clarified butter upon stacked sandalwood while sacred chants echoed through suffocating corridors. Hundreds of women dressed in bridal red moved slowly through torchlit passageways carrying lotus flowers and idols against their chests. Gold ornaments shimmered beside tearless faces. The air burned thick with incense and heat. 

Kesar felt her knees weaken. This was no longer rumour. Jauhar had begun.

The queens sat together inside the central chamber surrounded by flickering lamps. Rani Padmini looked impossibly serene beneath layers of crimson silk embroidered with gold. Her jewellery gleamed softly against skin washed with turmeric and rosewater. Around her sat noblewomen, servants, mothers, widows, and young girls barely old enough to understand death. No one screamed. No one begged. Only the chants continued rising steadily through the stone chambers while above them the sounds of battle grew nearer.

Kesar moved toward the queen and knelt beside her. “He received your message,” she whispered. Padmini closed her eyes briefly. “Did he understand?”

“Yes.” The queen inhaled deeply as though carrying the entire fort inside her chest. “Good.” Outside, the first great horn sounded from the Rajput lines. The final charge had begun. The warriors of Chittor had opened the gates.

Suddenly the entire fort trembled with noise. War cries exploded through the night while drums thundered across the hilltop. From distant ramparts came the clash of steel and the screams of dying horses. Alauddin Khilji’s army had entered the outer sections. The queens rose together.

For one terrible moment Kesar wanted to run. To flee into darkness through hidden passages leading beyond the fort walls. To abandon honour, kingdoms, kings, and history itself. But when she looked around the chamber she realised nobody else intended to leave. Not one.

The fires roared higher. Women began stepping forward slowly toward the blazing chambers below. Some held hands. Some whispered prayers. Some kissed sleeping children one final time before walking into the light.

Kesar stood frozen as heat scorched her face. Then Rani Padmini turned toward her unexpectedly. “You were born inside these walls,” the queen said softly. Kesar nodded through tears. “Then remember them properly.” The queen smiled gently before turning away and walking into the fire.

What followed never left Kesar’s memory, not even when age stole names and seasons from her mind. The roar of flames swallowing silk and sandalwood. The chants growing louder against the thunder of battle outside. The unbearable heat. The smell of burning ghee mingling with smoke and human skin. Above all, the silence of those women as they disappeared into history together.

By dawn, Chittor had fallen. Alauddin Khilji’s soldiers entered a fort of ashes, corpses, and smoke. The Rajput warriors lay slaughtered near the gates after their final charge. Palaces smouldered beneath blackened skies. Temples stood wounded but unbowed. The great towers still watched over the hilltop while vultures circled slowly above the ruins.

Kesar survived only because an elderly priest dragged her unconscious body from a smoke-filled corridor before sunrise. For years afterward she wandered through villages carrying memories too heavy for speech. Kingdoms changed. Rulers died. Children grew into old age hearing fragments of Chittor’s story beside winter fires. But the ashes refused to die.

Even today, Chittorgarh Fort rises across Rajasthan like the spine of a sleeping kingdom. Its vast hilltop stretches across nearly seven hundred acres, guarded by massive gates, scarred ramparts, silent palaces, reservoirs, and temples weathered by centuries of wind. Visitors still walk through the ruins of Rana Kumbha Palace where legends place the site of Jauhar. The Vijay Stambh still catches the evening sun. Monkeys leap across ancient walls where archers once stood waiting for invasion. During winter mornings the stone glows pale gold beneath desert mist while peacocks cry from broken courtyards.

And if one stands there at dusk, when tourists descend and shadows begin filling the old passageways, the fort changes again. The wind carries the smell of dust, dry grass, and distant woodsmoke through the ruins. The silence deepens. The walls darken slowly beneath the fading sky. Somewhere within that silence, Chittor still feels less like a monument and more like memory that never agreed to disappear.

If the windswept ramparts of Chittorgarh stirred your imagination, this journey has only just begun.

Across India, forts rise from deserts, mountains, islands, forests, and forgotten frontiers. Within their walls lie stories of courage and betrayal, sacrifice and survival, ambition and love. Some witnessed empires being born. Others watched them crumble into dust. Yet all continue to whisper their secrets to those willing to listen.

Discover twenty such unforgettable tales in my next Book to be released soon, Empires Left in Stone: Twenty Short Stories from the Forts of India, a collection that brings history alive through richly imagined fiction, transporting readers to the heart of India’s greatest strongholds and the extraordinary people who once called them home.

Watch this space. The stones still have stories to tell.

Ashes That Refused to Die, written by Trishikh Dasgupta, is the author’s sole intellectual property. This work of historical fiction is inspired by the history, legends, architecture, and cultural memory associated with Chittorgarh Fort, the siege of Chittor, and the enduring narratives surrounding Rani Padmini and Rajput resistance. While rooted in historical settings and traditions, the story is a dramatized and imaginative literary creation. All characters, dialogues, narrative elements, and fictionalised interpretations, including the character of Kesar Bai, are protected under applicable copyright laws. All rights are reserved.

No part of this story may be reproduced, distributed, transmitted, stored in a retrieval system, or translated into any form or by any means, including printing, photocopying, recording, scanning, or other electronic or mechanical methods, without the prior written permission of the author, except in the case of brief quotations embodied in critical reviews, academic commentary, and certain other non-commercial uses permitted by copyright law.

While the story references real historical locations, events, and personalities associated with Chittorgarh Fort and medieval Mewar, the narrative is a work of fiction. Historical accounts concerning the siege of Chittor and the life of Rani Padmini have been interpreted differently across chronicles, folklore, and literary traditions. The story does not claim to be a definitive historical account. Any fictional characters, conversations, motivations, relationships, and narrative incidents have been created solely for literary purposes.

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Trishikh Dasgupta

Adventurer, philosopher, writer, painter, photographer, craftsman, innovator, or just a momentary speck in the universe flickering to leave behind a footprint on the sands of time..READ MORE

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  1. vermavkv's avatar vermavkv says:

    This was incredibly powerful and immersive writing. The vivid descriptions, emotional depth, and haunting atmosphere brought the fall of Chittorgarh vividly to life. Every scene felt cinematic, especially the final moments of courage, sacrifice, and silence. A deeply moving piece that stays with the reader long after the last line.

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    1. Trishikh's avatar Trishikh says:

      Dear Verma’ji, thank you so much,

      Chittorgarh is one of those places where history, legend, and memory stand so close together that it becomes difficult to separate one from the other. While writing this story, my hope was not merely to recount a historical event, but to transport readers into those final hours and allow them to feel the weight of the choices, the silence, and the humanity behind the history.

      I am truly grateful that the atmosphere, emotions, and imagery resonated with you. Comments like yours make the countless hours spent researching and writing these stories worthwhile.

      Thank you for reading, reflecting, and continuing to walk these journeys through history with me.

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  2. MiamiMagus's avatar MiamiMagus says:

    Saving this for later. I need to catch up lol

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    1. Trishikh's avatar Trishikh says:

      Dear MM, I do not think that you have missed muchn. Do come back when you can, these stories will always wait for the readers.

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  3. shivatje's avatar shivatje says:

    🙏

    Aum Shanti

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    1. Trishikh's avatar Trishikh says:

      Thank you so much.

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  4. Keep these stories coming!

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    1. Trishikh's avatar Trishikh says:

      Thank you Vanya, I shall do my best to write many more of these stories for years to come. Soon I am launching my next book of 20 short stories dedicated to forts in India. I am sure that you would like it.

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      1. I really admire the talent and energy you put into your writing. It takes a lot of dedication to write so many tales.

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      2. Trishikh's avatar Trishikh says:

        Thank you Vanya.

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  5. gabychops's avatar gabychops says:

    Thank you, Trishikh, for the fascinating history lesson, written in your vivid style that brings each sentence to life. Brilliant writing!

    Joanna

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    1. Trishikh's avatar Trishikh says:

      Dear Joanna, its always a pleasure to share such a story, so deeply rooted in history, geography, and emotion. You already know that these are the subjects very close to my heart.

      Soon releasing my next book, my 3rd Collection of Short Stories “Empires Left in Stone – Twenty Short Stories from the Forts of India”. This book is dedicated to 20 forts in India. I am sure that you would love it.

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      1. gabychops's avatar gabychops says:

        Thank you, Trishikh, for the beautiful reply! As always, you are more than welcome!

        Joanna

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  6. safia begum's avatar safia begum says:

    A vivid historical narrative opening—immersing the reader in the sensory and psychological atmosphere of siege warfare at Chittorgarh Fort, where the changing smell reflects escalating tension and collapse. ⚔️📖

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    1. Trishikh's avatar Trishikh says:

      Dear Safia, thank you so much for appreciating this story of mine. So glad that you liked the way I portrayed the imagery.

      This is the first of many stories to come on Forts of India.

      My next book to be released soon, contains 20 short stories about 20 unique forts in India, seen from very different perspectives.

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  7. Unicorn Dreaming's avatar Unicorn Dreaming says:

    Wonderful story, thank you ❤️

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    1. Trishikh's avatar Trishikh says:

      Thank you so much Fiona.

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  8. Lovely to read such a multifaceted narrative of a culture other than mine. More texture of reality than I could ever gain by reading factual history.

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    1. Trishikh's avatar Trishikh says:

      That is such a beautiful thing to say about my writing. My entire effort is to make history more palatable and enjoyable. And I believe that there is nothing better than relatable human stories to do this.

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    1. Trishikh's avatar Trishikh says:

      Dear Ned, thank you so much for always appreciating and promoting my stories. I treasure your constant support and encouragement.

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  9. katelon's avatar katelon says:

    Such a powerful story. So all those women walked into a big fire? Yikes!

    It’s sad that history is filled with such violence and greed, all over owning something….titles, land, power, money.

    Your writing is so beautiful and evocative.

    Thanks for sharing Trishikh!

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    1. Trishikh's avatar Trishikh says:

      Yes, Jauhar or Jowhar was a practice of mass self immolation practiced by the women of the Rajput warrior classes (Kshatriya) in the kingdoms of ancient India.

      They did it to avoid capture, sex slavery, enslavement, and rape, which was eminent after defeat in a war.

      Thank you for liking my story so much. My next book to be released very soon showcases 20 short stories about 20 forts in India, seen from very different perspectives. I am sure that you would love it.

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  10. still cant like posts mate. sorry.

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    1. Trishikh's avatar Trishikh says:

      Dear William, it happens with me too. Sometimes I can’t like any posts of a particular blog. It is some kind of problem with WordPress. I will try to figure out if I can fix the problem from my end.

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      1. I can always like them on the app on my phone, but sometimes on my desktop I can’t like things either. I reported it and they told me refresh or log off and back in, but sometimes that doesn’t even work.

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      2. Trishikh's avatar Trishikh says:

        Ya it happens to me also. So it seems to be a WordPress inherent problem. I am sure that they will fix it, as too many people are complaining about the same thing.

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  11. A very enjoyable story.

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    1. Trishikh's avatar Trishikh says:

      Thank you so much. So happy that you liked the story.

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  12. Priti's avatar Priti says:

    Chittorgarh is a historical place of Rajasthan and your writing made it beautiful. So great writing.👏👏

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    1. Trishikh's avatar Trishikh says:

      Dear Priti, thank you so much for always appreciating my stories. I am really glad that you liked this one too. Rajasthan and especially its forts have always intrigued me. My next book, to be released soon, is dedicated to 20 forts in India.

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      1. Priti's avatar Priti says:

        WOW. Congratulations 🎉👏🏼

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      2. Trishikh's avatar Trishikh says:

        Thank You.

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  13. daisy's avatar daisy says:

    Loved your story, really enjoyed reading it.✨

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    1. Trishikh's avatar Trishikh says:

      Thank you Daisy. You are most welcome.

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  14. gc1963's avatar gc1963 says:

    This was incredibly visual. The charisma surrounding Chittor never wanes for me. Reading about its unforgettable legends always gave me goosebumps and left me bleary eyed from those early Rajkahini days. You have given an additional dimension to the jauhar saga with your word picture bringing every sigh, silence and the unimaginable pain of defeat alive.

    After my recent cataract surgery and complications thereafter I was not able to read much. I am glad I could read this story of magnificent imagery today.

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    1. Trishikh's avatar Trishikh says:

      Dear Geeta, thank you so much for this beautiful comment. Perhaps there could be no greater compliment for a story about Chittor than hearing it from someone whose imagination was shaped by Rajkahini. Like many Bengalis, I too grew up under the spell of those stories, where Chittor was never merely a fort but an emotion. To know that Ashes That Refused to Die could evoke even a fraction of those feelings means a great deal to me.

      What touched me even more was reading that you chose this story on a day when you were finally able to return to reading after your cataract surgery and the complications that followed. As someone now working in the eye care sector, I know how precious the gift of sight is, and I am genuinely delighted that one of my stories could accompany you on that journey back to books and stories.

      Thank you for your continued encouragement, your thoughtful reading, and for carrying the love of history and literature that keeps these forgotten worlds alive for all of us. Wishing you a smooth and complete recovery, and many more years of joyful reading ahead.

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      1. gc1963's avatar gc1963 says:

        Thank you so much Trishikh. God bless.

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      2. Trishikh's avatar Trishikh says:

        Dear Geeta, you are most welcome.

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  15. Sumita Tah's avatar Sumita Tah says:

    This is the very reason why people of Rajasthan stopped having daughters. They were afraid for their lives in the hands of intruders. Sad part is the practice continued even when invasions ceased. Such a powerful portrayal of the heart-breaking historical event. Brave ladies refused to give in and chose to give up their lives. Please write the story of Queen Rudabai who ended her life in the Adalaj stepwell.

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    1. Trishikh's avatar Trishikh says:

      Dear Sumita, thank you for your thoughtful comment. The story of Chittor is indeed one of the most heartbreaking chapters in Indian history. Beyond the legends and heroism, it reminds us of the immense human cost of war, especially for women who often found themselves trapped between impossible choices. While history and folklore may differ on details, the courage, fear, grief, and resilience of those who lived through such times continue to resonate across centuries.

      You also make an important point about how historical traumas can leave deep social scars that outlive the events that created them. History often casts shadows much longer than we realise.

      And thank you for suggesting the story of Queen Rudabai and the Adalaj Stepwell. Your suggestion has certainly found a place in my notebook of future stories.

      Thank you, as always, for reading so deeply and for enriching these conversations with your insights. It is readers like you who make the journey through history even more rewarding.

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      1. Sumita Tah's avatar Sumita Tah says:

        Deeply humbled.🙏 Your work will inspire writers for generations. God bless.

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  16. Lakshmi Bhat's avatar Lakshmi Bhat says:

    We were there many years ago. A living place and your story brought alive those long ago days. I liked your three books . They have left their impression, all your stories do. All the best and thank you.

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    1. Trishikh's avatar Trishikh says:

      Dear Lakshmi, so glad that my story took you back to the time when you visited Chittor. So glad that the story was able to refresh memory.

      I am so happy that you got to read 3 of my books. My next book, 20 short stories dedicated to 20 forts in India will be launched soon. I am sure that you would love it too.

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  17. what a great journey! a new realm. can’t wait for more.

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    1. Trishikh's avatar Trishikh says:

      Thank you Patrick. So glad that you liked the story. Yes, my next collection of short stories will be released soon…

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